i want to rant for a minute... i'm sitting here in bed flipping thru the channels and lo and behold i come upon VH1  talking something about rules of the red carpet. its like people that sweat and wardrobe malfunctions like nipples hanging out and stuff..... WTF, celebrities are HUMANS too. Humans sweat. humans are  not perfect. sometimes things go wrong. WHY  crucify them for it or make fun of them for it. us "normal" and lesser known people do it all the time. i know today i was sweatting my ass off at work b/c we were so busy. that doesnt meaan that i should be made fun of forever more because i might have sweat stains or my shirt might not fall right. and they're talking about the women showing stuff as a way to get publicity..... WTF they made a tiny mistake... you can't expect them to look absolutely perfect when you squeeze hem into all those tight things anyway....... ugh, people are so retarted.... celebrities are people.

 on a lighter note- yay justin:). last weekend i went home and got to mow the lawn with dylan and just  spend a normal day at home and justin got to be a part of that normal living type thing..... then i went to his house and we started celaning his room... all i can say is i love cleaning, and when i'm actually allowed up there, its going to be a field day cleaning his room... more like field weekend but YAY still..... this weekend we went to WMZQ fest which was so cool. Blaine Larson, Mark Wills, Trace Adkins, and Gretchen Wilson were all KICK ASS. it was such an awesome concert, i had such a good time with justins mom. i also liked being there with justin and sharing something i really like with him. he was even singing a little bit!! YAY.

in my near future, i have in store for me work, work, work, and lots and lots more work. a little leisure time in there and maybe some school work but theres lots of work. thats ok b/c i love it.  thats life in a nutshell right now b/c i don't really have alot of time.... i'm going to leave you with a really cool quote type saying that i heard the other day.....

"i am judged by my actions and not by my intentions. Thats why i live my life by actions and not by statments"

OMG GREAT WEEKEND!! of course it can't beat last weekend at Busch Gardens. But yeah.. Friday was a movie and dinner with Krista and Mariely. That was pretty good but when we went to dinner, stupid Shane was playing games with Mariely and boys like that just suck. Saturday i worked and it was so dead it wasn't even funny. when i got off we went to the salisbury festival, which was mucho ghetto as always. thats ok we won a fish, who krista named blue balls.... i have a fish named Lorania Bobbit and a fish named blue balls.... yeah, i didn't name either of them, just have that be known.
My boy came down and we were busy till we had to get ready to go out with Krista and Mariely. after doing my hair and all, i was fiddling around in my room just trying to get stuff together and i couldn't help but notice Justin just laying on the bed playing on his laptop and it wass just the most beautiful sight i have seen, i can not even tell you. It was just this feeling like i want to live the rest of my life where i can come in the room from anything and see him laying on our bed and know that its going to be like that for every day after that.  *teras* he is so amazing.... so yeah good time at the brew, i LOVE COUNTRY MUSIC. then when we got home, Mr. Justin kept me up till 3.

Today my boy and i finally got out of bed and went to IHOP for breakfast and there was a hair in my food... i thought i was going to throw up and didn't eat much after that. we came back to the apt. and then when out shopping and bought lots of hottttttt clothes for him. mmm, this one fabric was sooo great and it was black and he looked soooo awesome... yeah. after shopping there was lots of fun stuff and a really nice dinner. i love just sitting there talking about random stuff. he left after some more fun time and i'm just sitting here getting ready to go to bed so i can get up and go to work in the morning. i have to start really thinking about what i'm going to do about moving home and stuff like that so i can talk to my mom about moving home...... ugh stress.....

 Going to bed sore and tired and COULD NOT BE HAPPIER because i am in love with him so much. its perfect and i really have a good feeling!!

YAY!!! i have a blog now, or journal or whatever you want to call it!! YAYYAYAYAYAY! i'm sitting at work... doing nothing right now. i brought my laptop because i knew it would be dead, but i didn't know i'd be by myself. *sigh* oh well, more tips for me!! iworked all day yesterday, work today, and i think i'm going to go down to the Salisbury festival down by the river this afternoon when i get off work. I just hope i don't get shot. because you know this IS ghetto town. Anyways, Justin is coming down tonight!! Tomorrow i don't have to work- WOOHOO. This week coming up is nothing exciting, i am just not looking forward to next weekend when i have to go home and talk to my mom. Let's just say shes not easy to talk to... I need to figure out what to do with my life between now and then.. stress much?? oh well, i can always just be like yeah i'm moving in with justin so leave me alone, but i don't want to do that right off the bat. we'll see how things go.

YAY for a new journal!!